I hate myself because I am too shy
I hate myself because I am too weak
I could smile more often
And I could laugh a lot more too.
I hate myself because people tell me I should.
No one ever tells me that I am beautiful
Or even that I am "good"
I hate myself because the media tells me I'm not fabulous.
I hate myself because I don't have much of a personality.
I hate myself because my self esteem could be higher.
I hate myself because...
This poem may sound really negative, but I' am not trying to make it that way. This is just how I feel sometimes. I am so sick and tired of being shy, I'm sick and tired of not having a great personality or no personality at all. I'm so sick of not having any self esteem... And if I did hate myself these would only be some of the reasons. It just seems that no matter what I do, I can't do it right, I am always making mistakes, stumbling over myself, tripping over my feet, falling into deep black holes that take me forever to get out of.
i HAD to comment because i know these feelings all too well and i have a bunch of old poetry of my own describing it. the best thing that i've done is made peace with who i am, and love myself unconditionally. i hope that you are doing the same! and i really do like this poem, even if it does seem negative. the negative, heavy stuff IS reality.
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