Why?

Howcome I am the way I am? Really, that's all I want to know. I WANT TO CHANGE! I want to be better, more perfect! I don't want to be shy anymore. I don't want to be boring. I WANT TO CHANGE I WANT TO CHANGE! I WANT TO BE OUTGOING. I want to be able to pass people I know and smile and hug them, I don't want to be the "weird-o" or the odd one out, I want to be the cool fun, funny one. Why am I so serious? So stone faced, so hardbitten. I am sick of it. Please, change, come soon I am desperate for a new personality.